Life after pain


Who were you before the heartache, pain, and disappointments set in that caused you to have a hardened heart? Did you have dreams and admiration in life? You stepped out on faith and it was a total flop, so you’re no longer ambitious while being paralyzed by fear of failing again. Growing up were you super confident with a beautiful outgoing personality but due to bulling you’re now shy, introverted, and avoid attention at all cost? Were you fully committed to serving God and others in your local church, then you experience “church hurt” and allowed it to run you away? Or maybe you’ve been back-stabbed by some of your girlfriends so you’re now incapable of letting God ordained friendships into your life because you think they’re all out to get you. Whatever part of yourself you lost, decide to get to know her again and strive to build her up stronger and wiser than before. You can’t keep walking in brokenness expecting to thrive. You’re leaving broken fragments of yourself everywhere and with everybody. Allow God to mend what you can’t and let go of the pieces necessary to go forth.

The worst thing we can do is allow what happens to us in this life to turn us into someone we don’t want to be causing us to miss out on all that life has to offer. James 4:14 say “What is your life? You are a mist that appears for a little while and then vanishes.” I don’t know about you but the fact that I’ll be here one minute and gone the next, I’m going to enjoy life to the fullest! Why waste the precious days given to us by God crying soaking in misery when you can cast your cares unto the Lord because he cares and love you just that much (1 Peter 5:7). Am I saying not to take your time and release any emotions that you may be hoarding inside you? No! I’m simply suggesting that you acknowledge the emotion, cast it unto to the Lord, and get back to life. When you unpack and live where you’ve fallen you become stagnate, uninspired, and worst case scenario suffer with suicidal thoughts and depression (this happened to me). Don’t drift so far away from yourself that you’re unable to recognize YOU to do the necessary work to recover it all. Thank God we have a loving Father that will restore our lost months, years or however long we’ve been suffering.

It’s funny how we can be so vibrant full of ambition, living life at it’s full potential and then BAM life hits us and we allow it’s troubles to rob us of everything we once were. We tend to place our lil boo on the throne of our heart, place our value into our careers, and faith into the people we trust the most. I’ve learned that when we place our hopes, dreams, and faith in people or things we leave ourselves vulnerable to heartache and disappointment. In moving forward, we love to say we’re not looking back but moving straight ahead. However, I believe taking a glimpse of the past will give a outlook at what you once desired in life. Am I saying be who you were before you lost yourself; well no! I pray you desire to be more than who you once were. For me, examining who I was before, allowed me to gain perspective on the mistakes I made so that they wouldn’t be repeated. I was also able to study my weaknesses so that if or when I experienced the same struggles I could equip myself with the right tools to keep moving forward.

While in the process of discovering you again I want you to be mindful that Satan sees your every move. He isn’t threatened by the wimpy person you are now, but he wants to prevent you from discovering and becoming all God predestined you to be. He knows your weaknesses, what can distract you, and what hurts you and he’ll use whatever means necessary to stop your growth. Sis, don’t let him! I can only warn you of the things that stunted my growth with hopes you’ll learn from them and avoid the same attacks. I encourage you to put on your full armor of God and you go to war for what’s yours. We must start using Gods words as our weapon. In Ephesians 6:14-18 it tells us how to put on our full armor of God. It’s vital that you learn how to do so because Satan is very strategic in stopping whomever he think poses a threat to him. And since you’re committed to warding off the bad seeds he’s planted inside you along the way he’s plotting against you even now to hinder you from living a surrendered life full of love, joy and peace that we receive from God.

I can recall writing out everything I dreamed of doing and goals I wanted to accomplish in life before life took it’s toll on me. I couldn’t believe how much of myself I’d lost. I got so excited and with each day that passed I was coming up with plans to start tackling them one day at a time. Ok, so here I am full of enthusiasm and confidence that this was the first step to becoming the new Miracle. So here’s my attempt to conquer the first thing on my list and what do I get? Complete and total FAILURE!!! “You’re so stupid; what made you think you was smart enough to achieve that? You might as well give up now! You’ll never be more than what you are right now; a stupid, insecure broken little girl stuck in a grown woman’s body.” Extreme, right? Well those were the exact thoughts I began to think about myself after I failed. I wasn’t equipped with the right tools nor did I have my armor on because I allowed him to whisper his lies in my head that I USED to believe. After I wiped my tears from my eyes I cast those thoughts down and made them become obedient to Christ (2 Corinthians 10:5). So again, put on your full armor of God and go to war for what yours.

Ok, so let’s turn Ephesians 6:14-18 into a prayer.

Let’s pray

Father in the mighty name of Jesus I pray that whenever Satan comes to attack my progress in becoming made whole in you that you help me to stand firm with the belt of your truth buckled around my waist so that I don’t believe the deception he whispers into my mind because I know he is the father of lies. Lord I put on my breastplate of righteousness knowing that it will protect my innermost being in which you created from Satan’s attacks. Thank you for going before me to prepare my feet to be ready for obstacles that may be placed in my path so that I may handle them gracefully to keep the peace you’ve given me in the forefront of my mind. Lord, I remain with my shield of faith on so that nothing can make me doubt your love and faithfulness toward me because of how others may have treated me. The helmet of salvation will allow me to continuously fight off spiritual deception as I constantly renew my mind with the sword of the spirit which is your word. God I thank you now for what you’re doing in my life and I’ll never cease praying because I know that it is through prayer that I draw my strength from you. In Jesus name, I do pray. Amen!

I hope you’re accepting who you are, what you’ve lost, but also inspired to take it all back and then some by force by faith and with the strength you receive daily from THE power source; God! I can assure you, it won’t be easy. You’ll have days you want to run back to what’s comfortable because the process will stretch you to capacity. But be encouraged. Isaiah 40:29 says that “God gives strength to the weary and He increase the power of the weak.” As you continue with your daily walk through life… stay focused! Be watchful and pray without ceasing. Attacks may come, distractions may occur but you Keep pressing!! Let nothing stop you from receiving the joy God wants to give you. THERE IS LIFE AFTER PAIN!!!

Love, Miracle!


Trusting God when it hurts

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I can’t turn back now


Gosh, you ever been hit so hard by an unexpectant life tragedy that it literally felt like it took the wind out of your lungs? The kind of pain that knocks you to your knees. What do you do? How do you cope? Who do you blame? What/who do you use to comfort you through the pain? Are you clinging to God through it all, looking for the next escape route, or contemplating going back to what was comfortable?

While walking through what seems like the worse season of my life… I found myself finding comfort in the things God had already delivered me from. I found myself fantasizing over the futile void fillers that I KNOW hold no true value in my life. “I should just go back to turning up?” “Why dont I just take a few shots to help forget about my troubles?”

You see when we experience things in our life we have a choice on how we choose to handle it. We can let it destroy us… we can let it define us.. or we can let it refine, develop, and mature us. To often in the midst of the fire we make poor decisions. We stop going to church! We begin questioning God and His plans for our life. We forget how powerful He is. We forget how many times we felt lost and His sovereign  hand was our guide. We forget that if He did it before He can literally do it again, again, and again!!!

While I laid out crying out to God completely broken, contemplating quiting on Him all together if He didn’t speak to me RIGHT NOW the Holy Spirit led me to read about the Israelites.  I thought to myself… “What can I possibly learn from such rebellious, complaining, and ungrateful group of people right now.” Nevertheless, I cracked my bible open and talk about the Lord wrecking your whole life and getting you together. He’s so faithful!!!

While studying… I saw the countless ways God showed up for the Israelites and delivered them out of Egypt. The Israelites cried out to God and He heard them. After Pharaohs heart was continuously hardened and he refused to let the Israelites go..God forced His hand and Pharaoh set them free. God parted the red sea to help His people escape the hands of the Egyptians. While in the wilderness of sin the Israelites begin to complain and even became rebellious against the instructions of God… and to add fuel to the fire they complained so much and was filled with so much ungratefulness that they often times told moses he should have left them in Egypt.

You may be thinking. “How in the world does that apply to me and my situation.” Im glad you asked😏

How many times does God have to deliver you out of your troubles.. only for you to question if he’s able the next time something happens in your life? How many times does God have to provide and supply your every NEED only for you to mummur and complain because you don’t like the way He provided? How many times do we contemplate or even go back to our “Egypt” after God delivers us from it time and time again?

Our wilderness seasons are the perfect place for our character to be tested. It’s the perfect place for our faith to be refined. Difficult situations often leads to complaining. Hey, it’s a natural response! The Israelites didn’t really want to go back to Egypt. They were treated so harshly back there. They only wanted an easy escape from their troubles.

So I want to encourage. DON’T TURN BACK NOW!!! Don’t go back to your “Egypt” (clubbing, drunkensess, fornication, depression, bad relationships, or whatever else) because it was “comfortable”. Stay faithful to God and prove to Him that you’re not giving Him lip service when everything is up in your life. We say “God I trust you” “Send me I’ll go” “Use me Lord” “I trust You” but the moment the fire comes to test your faith and build you into true maturity in Christ we run, hide, and show God that our words has no true value.

When the pressure comes, resist the temptation to make a quick escape.  I encourage you to remain focused on God and trust that He is sovereign and He knows exactly what He is doing and NOTHING that is going on in your life caught Him by surprise. Keep pressing, let him carry you through it, remain faithful to Him as He bring you out, so you can encourage others that are still going through.

I love you all so much! Stay encouraged. I’m praying with you and for you ALWAYS.