Searching for love got my heart broken. Left with pieces of my heart shattered on the floor like broken pieces of a mirror is where the reality of my pain knocked me down like a ton of bricks. Soaking in a puddle of my own tears seemed to be the most comfortable place for me to reside. You would THINK one wouldn’t want to remember such pain. However, the place I am now looks back and embrace the painful memories of it all.
It was in that heartache where I discovered the toxic habits of searching for “love”, futile love that could never fulfill me. It was in that pain where I discovered nothing and no one would ever be able to heal the brokenness I tried so hard to cover up. It was in that puddle of tears where I found that God wipes every one of my tears and blesses those who mourn. It’s in those dark days where God comforted me the most.
If it had not been for the broken heart I wouldn’t know God like I do. I wouldn’t know Him to be a heart fixer if my heart never needed to be mended. I wouldn’t know He could be my peace if I wasn’t living in such chaos. I wouldn’t know Him to be my provider if I hadn’t needed Him to supply my every need after having to start my life completely over.
What I’m trying to convey to you is this…. What painful experience have you buried that had the power to save your life?!? Often times we want to shout from a place of victory but never want to go through anything to cause us to be victorious. You can’t heal what you refuse to confront. Often times while going through heartache instead of allowing God to mend what was broken and let the truth of His word penetrate our hearts we run to whatever we THINK will make us feel better. I’ve learned that the temporary relief from the pain (sex, drugs, alcohol, success, or whatever we choose to cope with) never brings lasting results. It’s not long before we’re back thirsty looking for ANYTHING to quench that thirst.
In a moment where I could have let rejection, heartache, and pain become my permanent reality… I chose to accept the facts of my situation but trust that my faith in God always goes against facts. So yes, you may be rejected by mere humans BUT you are fully accepted by God! Yes, your heart may be broken BUT you serve a God who is not afraid to stay close to the brokenhearted. Yes, you may have lost your job BUT you serve a God that supplies your EVERY need. You see with every lie of false identity that satan throws your way you have a BUT you can insert to throw in Gods TRUTH!!!
A broken heart saved my life because I accepted what WAS so that I could cast that at Gods feet so He could show me what could BE. A broken heart saved my life because the pain forced me into the arms of the one who gave His life for me to live. A broken heart saved my life because it stripped up the broken foundation I was standing on and forced me to accept my truth. What are you willing to accept and then cast at Gods feet to see the many possibilities He has in store for you? It’s painful but there is something so beautiful on the other side of it all.
Keep your faith strong, the light of your life shining bright, and keep inspiring souls wherever you go!
God loves you soooooo much and so do I!!