A Broken Heart Saved My Life!

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Searching for love got my heart broken. Left with pieces of my heart shattered on the floor like broken pieces of a mirror is where the reality of my pain knocked me down like a ton of bricks. Soaking in a puddle of my own tears seemed to be the most comfortable place for me to reside. You would THINK one wouldn’t want to remember such pain. However, the place I am now looks back and embrace the painful memories of it all.

It was in that heartache where I discovered the toxic habits of searching for “love”, futile love that could never fulfill me. It was in that pain where I discovered nothing and no one would ever be able to heal the brokenness I tried so hard to cover up. It was in that puddle of tears where I found that God wipes every one of my tears and blesses those who mourn. It’s in those dark days where God comforted me the most.

If it had not been for the broken heart I wouldn’t know God like I do. I wouldn’t know Him to be a heart fixer if my heart never needed to be mended. I wouldn’t know He could be my peace if I wasn’t living in such chaos. I wouldn’t know Him to be my provider if I hadn’t needed Him to supply my every need after having to start my life completely over.

What I’m trying to convey to you is this…. What painful experience have you buried that had the power to save your life?!? Often times we want to shout from a place of victory but never want to go through anything to cause us to be victorious. You can’t heal what you refuse to confront. Often times while going through heartache instead of allowing God to mend what was broken and let the truth of His word penetrate our hearts we run to whatever we THINK will make us feel better. I’ve learned that the temporary relief from the pain (sex, drugs, alcohol, success, or whatever we choose to cope with) never brings lasting results. It’s not long before we’re back thirsty looking for ANYTHING to quench that thirst.

In a moment where I could have let rejection, heartache, and pain become my permanent reality… I chose to accept the facts of my situation but trust that my faith in God always goes against facts. So yes, you may be rejected by mere humans BUT you are fully accepted by God! Yes, your heart may be broken BUT you serve a God who is not afraid to stay close to the brokenhearted. Yes, you may have lost your job BUT you serve a God that supplies your EVERY need. You see with every lie of false identity that satan throws your way you have a BUT you can insert to throw in Gods TRUTH!!!

A broken heart saved my life because I accepted what WAS so that I could cast that at Gods feet so He could show me what could BE. A broken heart saved my life because the pain forced me into the arms of the one who gave His life for me to live. A broken heart saved my life because it stripped up the broken foundation I was standing on and forced me to accept my truth. What are you willing to accept and then cast at Gods feet to see the many possibilities He has in store for you? It’s painful but there is something so beautiful on the other side of it all.

Keep your faith strong, the light of your life shining bright, and keep inspiring souls wherever you go!

God loves you soooooo much and so do I!!

Miracle!!

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Why Don’t you Love Me?

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When we are desperate to find love and be loved we often times settle in relationships and friendships. We tend to give others the permission to love us based off how much THEY think we are worth. If we are not confident in our identity in Christ and if we don’t know our worth we will accept less than what we deserve. When we are not complete or dont get the feeling of fulfillment we ask them and even oursleves. “Why dont they love me?”

As women how often have we lowered our self worth to remain in a relationship that was obviously not good for us? How often do we remain the “wifey” and “main chick” all the while our MAN runs the streets with his sidekick while you PLAY house at home? How often do we stay in a abusive relationship (physical, mental, or verbal) because we believe the lie that he is sorry and never will do it again or oh…. catch this! Somehow it was OUR fault why he acted the way he did. So because we don’t know who we are we accept this treatment thinking this is the best we can do. We remain unfulfilled starving for love asking ourselves. “Why don’t he love me?”

We also find ourselves leaching off of our relationships and friendships. We’re starving for attention and love and when someone doesn’t live up to the expectations that we’ve placed on them we’re left brokenhearted and let down. When our girls cancel plans with us instead of just saying “hey, my sis was just busy or something must’ve come up” we take it personal and think she’s being funny. And again,  we ask ourselves “why dont they love me” or “why they do me like that” That’s because you are functioning from a broken place sis. People can not fulfill the longing in our hearts that is screaming out for love. We can’t place unrealistic expectations on people. They will let us down and they will hurt us!  Intentionally and sometimes unintentionally. Why?! Because we are mere humans and imperfect people saved by a perfect God by His never ending grace.

So while we are crying about why don’t “they” love me God is standing there with His arms wide open wondering… “Why does my daughter not love me?”

God is saying, “Daughter… I knew you before I ever formed you in your mother’s womb. Before your parents ever thought of you my plans for your life were already strategically thought out and planned. I made you in my image and you are MY masterpiece. In me you are FULLY loved, FULLY accepted, and FULLY cherished! There is no need for you to roam the earth LOOKING for love when I freely give you Mine. You are a daughter of a King and I need you to remember that you are the prize and you are to be sought out as the gift you are. Rest in me and know that there isn’t any love that someone can give you that can amount to the love that I fill you with. Human love will always leave you thirsting for more but the love I give quenches your thirst so that you never have to go looking again. I need you to LIVE LOVED. Live knowing that you are fully loved in me. If you live loved you won’t search the earth aimlessly for what you already have in Me!

Sis, I pray these words penetrate your heart in such a way that you never have to ask yourself “why don’t they love me?” again. When you are rejected by people don’t let that be an opportunity for satan to plant a seed in your mind that makes you identify yourself as being rejected, unlovable, or unworthy. We are so quick to accept the lie from satan but have such a hard time believing the truth that is found in Gods word. Know who you are and Whose you are and walk BODLY in that fact.

God loves you beyond your wildest dreams!

Thank you for reading. With love, Miracle!

Don’t lose sight of God

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As I sit here reflecting a heavy moment  that I recently endured I felt compelled to share. Recently I found myself in a pretty tough position. Opposition all around me, mind overloaded with the issues of life, feeling defeated over doctor reports, body wracking with pain, and I slowly found myself upset, stressed out, and stuck out of fear from the storms raging around me.  I became overcome with such sadness and grief. How did I get here? How did I allow my mind to wonder off so far? How did I allow myself to waddle in the pit of my circumstances rather than stand strong in my faith? Again… how did I get here?

It took heavy digging but the conclusion was clear. I took my focus off of my God and placed them on my circumstances. Often times when we go through tough seasons we run. Run not to the Father who has all power to fix the impossible but we run and try to fix things only to find ourselves defeated because of our human weaknesses and limitations.

I was reminded by the story in the Bible when the disciples were in a boat experiencing a storm. One of the disciples..Peter, is called out of the boat onto the water and begins to walk towards Jesus. As Peter walks his eyes are focused on Jesus…. BUT as the storms around him are raging… like us Peter takes his focus off of Jesus and shifts his focus back to the storm and unsurprisingly Peter begins to sink. Of course Jesus reaches down to save him as Peter calls out for help. Jesus ask Peter “why do you have such little faith”?

Does that sound familiar? When we experience difficult times (storms) in our lives we may start off looking to Jesus but when the sprinkle of rain turns into pouring rain and the pouring rain turns into thunderstorms and the thunderstorms turns into flooding and maybe even tornadoes start to form we immediately shift our focus off Jesus and we begin to sink. Sink into worry! Sink into selfpity! Sink into depression! Sink deep into places that we never had to experience if we could have stood firm in our faith on the solid foundation Jesus so graciously gives rather trusting more in what we see with our natural eye which only leads us to sinking sand.

My question to you is this. When faced with your storm. Will you lose sight of God and focus on your storm or will you choose to remain faithful to a God that has remained faithful to you time and time again? He hasn’t failed you yet and I can assure you that you are not that special for God to lose his perfect record on you.

So hang on, keep fighting, keep praying, and keep believing!

Remember,  when you focus on your problems you lose sight of God! See pass what you see and trust that whatever you’re experiencing God ALWAYS works it out for your good.  Question is… will you change your perspective and stop looking at it from a victim mentality but from someone who is already a victor!

You must remain hopeful as you wait for the manifestation of your victory.

Keep your faith strong, the light of your life shining bright, and keep inspiring souls with the love of God!

💜Miracle💜

He loves my flaws!

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Often times we see our flaws and try our best to camaflauge them. In extreme cases some even result to plastic surgery when their flaws are physical. The flaws I hated most about myself was as follow.. Big head, big lips, big teeth, and big bags under my eyes. Whew! If you was to ask me a few years ago I would have told you that I HATED the way I looked. I would always get such sweet compliments from people but i was incapable of receiving them. Why? Because I didn’t see myself the way others including God saw me. I couldn’t get pass the “flaws” and negative mindset I formed against myself over the years.  Instead of embracing the way my Creator formed me with His mighty hands… I chose to imitate others in the way I talked, dressed, you name it… I was mimicking SOMETHING or somebody because in my eyes I was NEVER enough. I spent money on futile things trying to enhance the way I look only to still feel worthless. Why? Because my problem wasn’t external it was internal.

When I sit back and think about all the precious time I wasted trying to be someone else…. It hurts! The time we are given on this earth is only temporary… And to think I wasted any of it by not embracing ME is insulting. Not insulting to me but to my precious heavenly Father. My creator! The One who took His precious time molding and shaping me into His image. He is the potter and I am the clay… And I’m forever grateful NOW that He even took time to mold and shape me into His image. To allow ourselves to think as though we aren’t pretty enough, smart enough, or brave enough should be unthinkable to us. Unthinkable because we should see ourselevs through the lens of God’s eyes. The enemy would love for us to continue beating ourselves up over our flaws but I want to encourage you to embrace them and be unapologetically YOU!!! Unique in all your ways.

When you look in the mirror what do you see? Do you see someone with endless potential? Or are you incapable of seeing it? Do you only see yourself the last place you failed? Is your worth still non-existent because of someone else’s opinion of you? To often we place our value and worth in the hands of others then we’re left broken when they leave.

If you’re feeling bad about yourself and the flaws you carry I need you to look in the mirror, denounce the lies from Satan, turn that frown upside down,  and speak words of affirmation to yourself.  Remind yourself of who  you are, WHOSE you are, and who you belong to.  Your creator makes no mistakes.  He sees you and think you’re wonderfully made.  You were made in HIS image.  How fascinating is that?? He loves your flaws and think they’re BEAUTIFUL. What we label ugly,  unusable, and worthless God can use to bring himself glory.  That’s what it’s all about anyway right? Right!😏😊

So instead of focusing on everything you’re not.. embrace everything you are! Instead of looking at yourself through the lens of self hurt, lies from Satan and his little messengers retrain your thoughts. Take those negative thoughts captive and make them be in alignment with God’s word.

Tips to consider:

1) Look in the mirror and speak affirmations to yourself (Hey, it sounds crazy 🤷🏾‍♀️but it works🙄)

2) Retrain your thoughts with God’s word. The only way to know who you are and what you posses is to seek your creator

3) Sepereate yourself from any negative people. If you stay around people who constantly puts you down they will continue suppressing the work you’re doing to escape from old mindset you carried

4) Pray! Yes, pray! Ask God to remove anything in you that doesn’t please Him. Ask Him to show you who you are and why you were created. He’s such a loving Father that he’ll send people your way to confirm what He speaks.

5) Allow yourself to feel beautiful and confident. Contrary to popular belief.. just because you’re confident and walk with your held high doesn’t mean you’re conceited. It’s a beautiful thing when God sets you free from bondage. Walk boldly yet HUMBLE in that freedom He gives you.

Thank you so much for reading my blog and my prayer is that you evaluate the way you see yourself and what you label flaws. Be confident in the way you were created. God makes no mistakes. Embrace YOU, SHINE bright, and light this world up.

I love you all so much

❤Miracle❤

 

 

 

I have… Have you?

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Have you ever lied to someone that you love? Have you ever cursed someone out that you felt as though they came for your life? Have you ever repeated a rumor someone told you but was ready to fight when you heard your business was out in the streets? Have you ever took something that didn’t belong to you? Have you ever gotten so drunk that you passed out? Have you ever had sex with someone outside of marriage? Have you ever murdered someone? Whether it was physically, mentally, or with your cut throat words? Have you ever judged someone you saw praising God that you thought weren’t “saved” enough to even know Him like that? Have you ever found yourself secretly mad at God?

I could literally go on and on asking these “Have you ever” questions and EVENTUALLY I’ll come down your row at some point! How do I know that? Because the bible clearly states that ALL have fallen short of the glory of the Lord!  So no matter what’s at the end of the “Have you ever” question the answer will always be “yes”. Our yes will just look different than others.

With that being said…. Why do me rip each other apart so viciously? At some point in our lives we all have done SOMETHING we wish could stay private. We all have pages in our life story that we wish would never get “published”. So why do we spend so much time talking down on others? Why do we feel that it’s ok to gossip about other people’s down falls and mistakes but get upset when we are he topic of someone else’s conversation. I get no one is perfect and the world we live in makes it so easy to want to get even, gossip, and laugh when someone else is down but as believers God is calling us to a higher standard. We aren’t perfect but striving to be the best version of ourselves so that God can get the glory is what we should seek after the most… Right??

I’m not saying we should excuse sin, harsh treatment, or someone’s blatant disregard/disespect towards us… but I am suggesting that we restore others with forgivness and love. No one is perfect although we have many selfrighteous people that look down on others because their sin isn’t “as bad” as the one their pointing their fingers at neither is what their doing on front street YET! And for the record there is no little sin big sin. SIN IS SIN!!! WRONG IS WRONG!!!

So before we’re quick to point fingers, gossip, and slander someone… ask yourself.. Have I ever?!?! And it may not equal up to them but you’ve done SOMETHING!!!

Sisters, let’s spend more time loving and restoring others with the love of God!

Let’s forgive those who’ve wronged and mistreated us!

Let’s point people to the Father and be and example to those still walking in darkness instead of inflicting more pain on them.

As believers, we are the salt of the earth and the light of the world. We are to be set apart! We can’t do that by tearing each other down. Lets rise up to the standard of which God has called us to walk in! No more conforming to the pattern of this world. No more hurting our brothers and sisters in Christ that we should be loving.

So now I ask You!

Have you ever forgiven those who persecuted you?

Have you ever help someone you saw in need although you KNEW they didn’t care for you?

Have you ever prayed for those in need?

Have you ever made the decision to do the right thing even though it wasn’t the most popular thing to do?

Have you ever reached out to someome who people considered a cast out?

Have you ever invited someone to church to help them learn more about Jesus?

Have you ever witnessed to an unbeliever?

HAVE YOU EVER!?!?

Sis, I pray this blog speaks to your heart to get rid of the selfrighteous judgemental attitude you may have. We ALL aren’t right. We’re only right because of Jesus and what HE did for us. We have no hell to place people in. We are not the judge and jury over people lives. Our job is to tell people about Jesus, lead them to salvation, and be the light in the midst of this dark world. Step aside and let God handle the rest.

To know God is to have found REAL love! So SPREAD LOVE!!!!

Keep your faith strong! Keep the light of your live shining bright! Keep inspiring others with the love of God

💜Miracle💜